1-1-01

She's filled with silicone, and diet pills.. and cold realities
She covers herself
With rouge, and lip gloss

And men

Anything
To make her look
Unlike
Herself
Because, you see, she is ugly
And to her
All this will help.

01-10-01

-Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works
When it costs to much to love- Fiona Apple

2-01-01

You call
And fill my head with "I'm sorry"s and "I love you"s
You manifest these perfect little fantasies and convince me you can give them to me
I am naive when it comes to you
And all I want to do
IS PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE
But I love you
Please....... just don't this time.

3-19-01

To my friends: One or more of the following applies to you...

*Where have I been? Where have you been?.. You're conveniently not there when I call.
*Hey... let's speak BRITISH to him.
*If you don't take this camcorder back I'm gonna start making cat porn with it.
*I think you're warming up to me... asking me silly self-conscious questions, if only people knew the real you eh.
*Stop being so stressed... it'll work out, it always does.
*Oh yeah and you need to calm down... you have plenty of time to find the right one.
*And I know what you'd be saying.. "Krissy stop talkin out of your ass".

4-28-01

*belch*

7-15-01

"What are you doing?"
"Laying here."
"Why?"
"Because here is where you are."

7-21-01

No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. No more. NO MORE!

7-22-01

Yeah that no more bit.... doesn't work, don't try it.

8-1-01

...am I a bad person





only to myself..
I don't hurt anyone else



...so am I still a bad person

8-9-01

So....what exactly is it about the ones who don't want you back. There are plenty who do. But man, those ones who treat you like shit...they're somethin else. You find one of them and you can just stop your searchin. ...Maybe I'm emotionally masochistic...

8-10-01

..yeah.. maybe this is about you..





NO IT'S NOT FUCKIN ABOUT YOU.. IT'S ABOUT ME.

8-11-01

...."are you happy?"
"do you think I'm happy?"
...."well...you smile alot... but I don't think you're happy"

8-15-01

*Phone Conversation*

"I'm getting to the point where I just don't care anymore."
-"About life?"
"... about how long you're supposed to cook hot dogs in the microwave... who knows, I just hit buttons."

9-10-01

-Talking in ebonics-

Why's ereybody so scurred.

9-21-01

Thought about you all day
Wish you knew
Wish you cared
I wish you felt the same way

11-14-01

*Phone Conversation*

"hey I figured out how to find out what you sound like to other people"
-"oh yeah, how?"
"you plug your ears with that triangle thing and"
-"wait, what triangle thing"
"you know that triangle thing on your ear"
-"ohhh what's that called, I used to know.. I was gonna get it pierced once"
"yeah so was I but I can't remember what it's called either, anyways you plug your ears with those and talk"
-"couldn't you just listen to yourself on the answer machine"
"well... yeah, I guess"

12-18-01

Rubbing eyes
Red
Raw
Insides burning
I want to puke
And kill you
And kill me
And live happily ever after
Together in nothing
Never
Knowing
Never
Needing
End this endlessness