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9-26-00
You only love me when you want HOO-NONNY!
9-27-00
A stranger to myself, I may be.. maybe.
9-28-00
She's a beautiful, yellow eyed, banana junkie,
in an oddly textured stupor.
10-2-00
Tripod wouldn't let me in to work on my site
alllll weekend, and I was hoping to get an e-mail from Danielle today and I didn't. Actually though, I feel awesome lately,
despite what has happened and will continue to happen. I'm just happy to be... happy.
10-3-00
The tree-tops around my, otherwise vacant,
window are lit. Lit by a force more beautiful than the sun. And the only other sign of light is radiating off my computer
screen. The ugly light that keeps me up while the trees become imaginary. Darkness questions everything... except for me.
Hands absorb plastic. Face burried deep into an empty promise. The only audible sounds are breath and heartbeat. Until the
trees become real again, and bang against my head.
10-4-00
Nature seems to be threating my friendships.
Pure nature. Such a nature that attracts suburbs and large department stores. Artificial friends. Glowing psuedo smiles and
cheap compliments that invade my sanity. Humming powerlines replace the trees. All that's left of pure nature. Is in my mind.
10-6-00
I don't really have anything interesting to
say. I'm really hoping that happiness from Monday wasn't short-lived.
10-10-00
I've been sick as hell the last 80 million
days.
10-11-00
You're so plastic. Feelings tightly bound
with cellophane. Iced over by your dwelling. And he was right, any idiot WOULD understand. At least I don't have to glaze
things over for you anymore. Moron.
10-12-00
Upon recently becoming enemies with a friend
I have found that I am more open to people around me. I've been talking to people that I would otherwise have overlooked,
and I rather enjoy these new aquaintances. So I am thinking. Perhaps it is important to dispose of, or maybe just set aside,
ones friends so that you may meet new people. My conclusion: Put an expiration date on your friends.
10-13-00
I just realized I haven't acknowledged someone
on my site at all and she sooo deserves it. So I'd like to say "OH MY GOD IT'S PINK THE FAT OL' BITCH".
10-30-00
Something really shitty happened and everything
I want to say doesn't make sense right now.
11-11-00
Flashes of beauty. They lasted less than a
second and came only once every 15 minutes. Vague yellow lines. I'd stare. Pupils dilated to their extreme. Refusing to blink.
Waiting for that split second, when the car passed a street light and her face was lit. The image would burn and leave a red
outline in the darkness. Hours of this. Hours of driving down nothing to nowhere. We were about to take an exit down a long
road with no lights. I would miss her. And as the last flickering bulb passed over us. There were her eyes.
11-17-00
"Oh Krissy..... I don't want to be fake,"
hmph.. I'm going to hiss at you next time we talk.
11-20-00
"It's so quiet in your house now."
"Yeah...
you're only here between the screams."
11-21-00
"All the times, that I've cried, all this
wasted, it's all inside, and I feel, all this pain, stuffed it down, it's back again, and I lie, here in bed, all alone, I
can't mend, and I feel, tomorrow will be ok," But it won't.- "Outside" by Staind.
Listen to it.
11-27-00
What? What's that? Hold on. Let me wash the
plexi-glass between us. Better. I guess. Alright. So what was that you were saying? Something about "things are still the
same..."? This wall must be pretty clean to you.
12-25-00
I fancy you. | 
